Bliss

October 8th was wonderful. I had fun getting my hair done with all the ladies, the temple was beautiful, we got great pictures, Chuckarama was....chuckalicious? The reception at Wyatt's was sooooo fun. It was intimate enough that I had time to talk to all people there, and we were surrounded by people we love. We stayed our first night at the Grand America Hotel (they even upgraded us to a suite) and enjoyed a weekend with each other and ate lots of great food (ie the Melting Pot)

Coming back into reality was hard, since we both had to be back at work on Monday. But we were off Thursday afternoon for California. After a delayed flight, we arrived in Cali and got our rental car. We stayed at the Hilton Anaheim...which we purchased our room off of priceline.com. It was the handicapped suite, which was kinda retro-80's tacky. At least it was cheap. We became addicted to Starbucks Vanilla bean creme frappucinos. The Cali reception was also great...fewer people than SL but equally warm and enjoyable. Mostly family and ward members. And lots of good presents.

We spent the weekend at Port Hueneme at a timeshare condo. Other than stormy rainy weather, having the beach across the street was wonderful. We ate at a delicious Japanese restaurant several times, and did a little shopping at the nearby factory stores. Monday we went to the LA Temple and Visitors Center, and flew home after In-n-out with Brandon and Aileen. After arriving home near midnight, we were back to work Tuesday.

Marriage isn't much of an adjustment...other than Taylor hogging the sheets and forgetting to put the toilet seat down...and other "benefits" of marriage, things are about the same....but HAPPIER.

Our task of the week is to find a new car. Taylor's Bimmer has bitten the dust.

Geez...What a Life!

Just a quick update:

Getting married Friday October 8. Sealing is at Mt Timpanogas Temple at 1:00, Reception at 6:30 in Murray. If you didn't get an invite and want to come...let me know.

Steve was arrested and put in jail. His family put up money to bail him out (The bail was set at $150k)

Rosie is doing better, but still quite sensitive in most aspects. She's excited to have Taylor be a part of our family.

My brother Jacob suffered a head injury. He is in the ICU at LDS Hospital currently, with a baseline fracture of the skull and subdural hematoma. Last CT scan looks okay, very little bleeding at this point. He will recover, but I just got back from the hospital and he was really sedated. He is so sad he'll miss the wedding. It will be sad to not have Jacob there. Keep him in your prayers!

Ketchup Quickly

Sunday
Church with Taylor went very nicely. He read books to Rosie, put his arm around me, and I could tell that he felt comfortable. There were plenty of smug looks in our direction, but I felt completely happy having him at my side. In SS, I introduced him as someone who was interested in becoming a part of the ward. He met Jessica and Wendy, and a few other friends of mine, and they seemed to like him. After church we came to my house to finish the BTS cake, change, and then we followed each other over to my parents house.

Dinner was teriyaki chicken, which Taylor said was the best he'd ever had. And the BTS cake was good too. We watched the rebroadcast of Elder Maxwell's funeral and had a really great talk about marriages being eternal. He had to head home earlier than I would have liked, but the quality time made up for it.

Monday
Can't remember...that was a whole week ago!

Tuesday
Taylor was at my house when I got home from work. He had just finished up the arrangements at Shane Co. I made crockpot turkey for dinner, and he helped out making the gravy and potatoes. We dropped off Rosie at work with Karen, and headed to Temple Square. We walked around the gardens and then spent some time talking in the tabernacle. He seems supportive of my future wish to be in the Tab Choir. We did an endowment session at the temple. He said I looked absolutely gorgeous in white. I loved being able to look over at him and see his quiet, contemplative, reverence. I felt very good spiritually also...so thankful that I had been declared worthy to attend the temple. My heart was filled with so much joy as I spent time with Taylor in the Celestial Room. He kept saying "I could so get used to this." When we walked out of the temple, he held me very close and said "I will love you forever."

After the temple, we picked up Rosie and got shakes and headed back to my house. It was a stormy night, with lightening more amazing than I can remember. We watched the storm, sat in each others arms, and discussed the joys of our future together. He slept on my couch, and I headed up to bed....wishing we were married and could have had him follow me up.

Wednesday
Slipped downstairs, kissed Taylor on the cheek, and read my scriptures...peeking over at him occasionally. He would have made me breakfast if I didn't have to head to work....but reality caught up to me. He had forgotten his cell phone in my car, so he stopped by work to pick it up. It was sweet to have him grab me for a longer hug after I gave him a quick one when I met him. Made the security guys chuckle.

Thursday
Steve picked up Rosie early so he could take her to festival. Ahh...a few days of freedom!

After work, I headed down to Provo to spend the evening with Taylor. He had been feeling somewhat ill...a bit of a head cold...but was feeling better by the time I got there. He made me chicken stir fry for dinner. We went over to Provo Towne Center so I could pick up my guitar case, and look for a gift for Jacob. We couldn't find the CD he wanted at the mall, so we went to Media Play. It was so fun being there with Taylor....as big of a pop culture junkie as me! We dug through the CD bargain bins (almost got Adam Ant for him for $2) Found Jacob's cD eventually, and then headed over to A&W for root beer floats. Funny how we felt ridiculously giddy for each other... couldn't stop holding hands or complimenting each other. It was sweet.

Back at his place, we watched Better off Dead....on DVD! I had been waiting for it to be released...and lo and behold it was already out. It's hard to say whether he, I or his roommates quoted it more. Can't wait to give him some (international) language lessons. hehe.

Friday
Taylor had to work in the evening.....so I went to the Peter Breinholt concert at Brigham Young park. Super crowded....sat in the very back on the lawn...but Schroeders and Adam Shiflett and his wife (Cydnee's sister) Wished Taylor was there with me....he would have liked it. Ran into Steve Best....a little awkward but still good to see him.

After the concert I picked up Rosie and went to Mooney's again to hang with Esther. Rosie was sleepy the whole time, so we just chatted with Jessica...her friend from her UVSC days. I didn't stay long...just till after Seinfeld, and talked with Taylor on the way home. He makes me so happy.

Saturday
Crazy day! Woke up early to do some cleaning, and then helped Rosie decorate her bike for the primary parade. Then went to Rachel's baby shower at Jodi's house. It was one of the funnest showers I have ever been too...I really bonded with my coworkers. My yarn game went over very well and the food was excellent. Wish I had more time to socialize, but I had Lori Ham's shower to get to. That shower was also great, just sad because the Hams are moving to Arizona in a few weeks.

I met up with Taylor at my parents house. I was so tired when I got the house, I just crashed on the couch. When he came in, he gave me a tender kiss and stroked my hair until I accepted waking reality and got up. We lazed around for a while, listening to John Mayer. Then we went to Target and got some portraits taken. It was so fun to get into cutesy-kissy poses. I can't wait to get them back....too bad it is a three week wait. Blech.

Picked up pizza for dinner, and spent the evening together at my parents house. Taylor wanted to head home early to get back to prepare for Sunday, when he noticed his front tire was noticibly low. My dad helped us change his tire, our first trial together. LOL It afforded us another hour together, so it wasn't all bad.

Sunday
Taylor went to his ward so he could talk to his bishop about the letter for the sealing cancellation. It was sad not having him there with me, but I look forward to many times together with him at my side at church. I sang in sacrament meeting with the ward choir (As Sisters in Zion/Army of Helaman medley) and led the music in RS. (still haven't been sustained though LOL)

Met up with Taylor after church at my parents house. Made him another mix cd of dad's MP3s. Hopefully he will like (especially "Maybe I'm Amazed" and "Forever" by Beach Boys) Dinner was tacos, with GG and Pop, and Linda and Don....as well as my family. It was a nice gathering, lots of laughs and memories. Grandpa talked about his cars, and Taylor made a comment about them being less maintnence than a wife...it made everyone laugh. We had BTS cake, grandma and Jacob opened presents, then Taylor and I took off.

We stopped by Martell's place to pick up an XBOX game he had left, then we went to Murray park to lay out and enjoy the evening (since Rosie was sleeping) Being there brought back many memories of my HS days (we saw the trees I planted in MCYG) We talked and sang to each other, and talked about some wedding plans. One of the nicest nights I've had, just spending time with him. I also asked about Amanda, and how I stacked up to her (since I can help but compare myself) He said I will always be better because I have beautiful blue eyes, I have great taste in music (she liked country) and he wasn't as attracted physically to her. I know I shouldn't worry...but it still happens. He resolved a few of my fears, so I feel better about it.

This week he will be packing up, taking finals, applying for jobs, and moving to SLC. I can't wait to have him live in town!

Not Much Time to LJ these days

Wow....20 days since my last LJ post. I've been incredibly preoccupied. But I am still recording my life....just on paper. Wow, how therapeutic it is! So since then, I have been spending as much time as possible with Taylor, and copious amounts of time with my family and Rosie. But I will provide the highlights:

July 17th, Taylor proposed to me atop the hill above the state capital, at sunset. He downplayed on the evening, just saying we'd take a drive and grab a bite to eat. After talking for about 20 minutes, he said, "You know I have ulterior motives for being here?" and he knelt down. His actual words were, "Nicole Watson, you are the woman I want to be with for eternity. Will you marry me?" Back at the car he had 2 dozen red roses, and we ate dinner at Kyoto. It was incredibly romantic.

The week after, his parents came in from California. Gary and Eleanor are wonderful, I can't wait to claim them as family. His siblings are great, and also his niece Nevaeh. Dinner with my parents went so well, fajitas were tasty, and great bonds were established. We spent and evening in Park City, swimming at the pool at their condo. I am thrilled to see them later this week when we head to Cali.

Also....Ryan Shupe and the Rubber Band at Sandy Amphitheater rocked...even though the PDA police got sicked on us. Taylor moved to SLC so I have been able to see him everyday. Quinn Wall got married. Won Charlie Mars tix in the End Zone and had a lunch date with Taylor.

Planning to leave for California on Friday morning. I am so stoked....beach, family, and In and Out Burgers. MMMMMM

Also, for any who read this....please keep Rosie in your prayers...she isn't sick or in immediate danger....but please pray.

Unforgettable in every way

Just when I think a day can't get any better....it is once again surpassed.

I didn't think any day could beat the day of the Sarah McLachlan concert with Taylor. That evening in it's entirity was amazing. But yesterday was so lovely that I think I'll just have to stop comparing.

Friday night and Saturday morning I spent with Esther, Kris, and Emily Epperson at Mooneys for a sleepover. It was so fun to have girl time, but it was interesting how the only thing I wanted to talk about was my relationship with Taylor, and they seemed to tire of the subject easily. But they seem happy for me. I worked a few hours for Linda, then headed to my parents house to do some palm synching and burn some CD's for Taylor (Simon and Garfunkel, MB 20, Moosebutter, and "Mellow Mix") He was spending the morning and early afternoon helping his cousin move from Provo to Murray. I headed to his cousin's apartment around 2, and helped them finish up moving all the boxes from the truck and cars into their place. Dustin and Sally are very nice people, I look forward to getting to know them more.

We dropped Rosie off with Mary, and headed to Shane Co. Ben was our salesman, and he was very helpful. There were probably about 20 rings that caught my eye, 7 I liked, and two that I considered carefully. Ben got out a few sapphires and diamonds and we checked out the different combinations. I fell in love with one...and I think it will be very beautiful all set correctly and on my FINGER! Because of the trade in on Amanda's ring, we'll have to purchase more from them, so it looks like we will be buying his band and some sapphire stud earrings for me (since I don't want a wedding band)

We spent some time with my family, looking at scrapbooks, and uploading pictures. We didn't stay too long because we wanted to get started on dinner. I made baked ziti, and we napped a little while it was cooking. We had some very wonderful conversations, and it just reaffirmed how I felt about him. Dinner was nice, he made some killer cheese bread, and we watched part of Pride and Prejudice. (which is his favorite Jane Austen book ;) He laughed so hard, especially when Collins said "A virtuous women never hides her bushels."

We got all fancied up and I wore my new formal for dancing. We went to the MAC, and danced a little in each building. The best part was sitting out on the bench and gazing at the blue moon (which wasn't actually blue, but by the end of the night had taken on a peachy-pink tint) We talked about how much we look forward to our future together, and how wonderful it will be to attend the temple together. We are going on Tuesday to SL for a session, he's never been there for a live session. He sang some songs for me, like "That's All" by Michael Buble. ("If you're wonderin' what I'm askin' in return dear, you'll be glad to know that my demands are small. Say it's me that you'll adore, for now and ever more. That's All...that's all.")

We drove to my parents house so I could drop him off at his car. We listened to the "Nicole Love Mix III" CD he made for me. While we were listening to "Collide" by Howie Day, he said, "Nicole, be my wife." And I said, "Of course, I'll be yours forever." Not sure if I consider it a real proposal, but it was so beautiful and sincere. Of course, tears started falling down my cheeks. I don't think I've ever felt more in love in any moment than in that one.

I gave him a copy of my house and car key, and I forgot to take back the house key to go home. I didn't have my purse or cell phone on me, and it wasn't until halfway home I realized I wouldn't be able to get into my house. I went back to my parents house, used my dad's cell until Taylor finally picked up. I went over to John's apartment to get the key, and meet his future roommate (which will be his last until me :D)

Needless to say...I couldn't have asked for a better night.

This morning I met with my stake president. I now am a worthy recommend holder. And it feels so good. We discussed the sealing cancellation, and he doesn't forsee any problems, and didn't see any 1-year stipulations in the handbook. Next time I see Bishop Petersen, I will want to get on the paperwork. But for now, I'm just waiting for Taylor to get here...he's coming to church with Rosie and I. Ahh...to be the ward scandal again. Hehe.

Adieu, My Friend

Elder David B. Haight dies at 97
Elder Haight was one of my very very favorite apostles...if it is appropriate to have a favorite. I had a brief, but impressionable time in my life where I spent some time with him somewhat frequently. When I was working with Dr. Downard at Utah Vision Care, Elder Haight was one of his patients, and due to his macular degeneration, his prescription changed rapidly. When I was working there, he was testing out contact lenses to have decent correction between changes in his glasses. Since I was a contact lens tech, I spent hours with him, not only helping teach him to wear the lenses, but actually inserting the lenses in his eyes. Just touching his face, I could feel a surge of power.

He taught me some great lessons. This was at the time that John had just left on his mission. I was very disheartened from missing him so much, but so happy that he was in the service of God. He told me to keep up in writing the letters, be positive but not brag about life at home, and use the time to become a better person instead of miss him. He also taught me great things about being married, and being a good spouse. I think he told me the story of his and Ruby's honeymoon five times, and it was so sweet and adoring. One time he had me call her to tell her that he was on his way home to her. Such a sweet man.

It's kinda crazy....two apostles dying in 10 days. I wonder who will be called into the Quorum of the Twelve. I'm sure there will be some announcements soon.

Home Life...Once in a Blue Moon

Last night Taylor and I spent the majority of the evening with my family. We had hoped that we could do a temple session, but I was unable to get an appointment with my stake president until Sunday. So we decided to chill with my family. For the first hour or so, we visited with my dad. It's uncanny how well they get along! They talked a lot about their growing up years, it was fun to hear my dad tell stories I've only heard a handful of times. I have a feeling that dad and Taylor will become very very close, in a way that Steve never had the capacity to.

Dinner was somewhat interesting. Mary is at Oakcrest this week, but it was still a full house. Jacob had Jen over...a pretty interesting character (I can't tell if they are together or not) but we was fun to listen to about her crazy life. Shawn was getting a rollicking about having a new internet girl calling him all the time, with Maria still in the picture. Jacob called him "the playah." I busted a gut.Rosie kept saying how she was excited that she will have two dads. Steve is pretty upset about that (when he came over this week, he started fuming when she told him that. "NO! He'll be your STEP-dad!" He was even more angry when I told him I would be proceding with cancelling our sealing)

My parents anniversary is Monday...27 years. My mom went out and bought her own gift, as usual. She got some jewelry, some magnificent BLUE moonstone. It is gorgeous. The blue moon is Saturday night....which only happens every 17 years. Taylor and I are planning on getting fancied up and go dancing at the MAC on Saturday. How cool would to be to get some blue bling for my finger(that matches my blue eyes) on the blue moon? Alas, knowing Taylor....he's going to want to wait a few weeks (which is inconvenient for planning a wedding)

After dinner we went over to Emily's house. She is very happy that Taylor is a H/G'er and said that alone gives her full approval. Still waiting to get Em's impressions of him. After that,we had a little alone time...and we decided to go for a drive...but we drove each other's cars. I've never drove a Bimmer...let alone a 1986 beater with no A/C or power steering. But it was fun. Some good tunes, including this one that Taylor dedicated just for me.

You're My Home by Billy Joel
When you look into my eyes
And you see the crazy gypsy in my soul
It always comes as a surprise
When I feel my withered roots begin to grow
Well I never had a place that I could call my very own
That's all right, my love, 'cause you're my home

When you touch my weary head
And you tell me everything will be all right
You say, "Use my body for your bed
And my love will keep you warm throughout the night"
Well I'll never be a stranger and I'll never be alone
Whenever we're together, that's my home

Home can be the Pennsylvania Turnpike
Indiana's early morning dew
High up in the hills of California
Home is just another word for you

Well I never had a place that I could call my very own
That's all right, my love, 'cause you're my home

If I travel all my life
And I never get to stop and settle down
Long as I have you by my side
There's a roof above and good walls all around
You're my castle, you're my cabin and my instant pleasure dome
I need you in my house 'cause you're my home.
You're my home.
___

I just got an email from Esther inviting me to a slumber party. She still isn't sure if it will be tonight or next Friday, but I'm way excited. I could use some girl talk...and a pedicure.

Monday, Monday

Finished my workfile! My outstanding A/R is at $201K, which is the lowest it has ever been (since Oct 2003 at least, when we were assigned personal workfiles)

Filled in all the important co-workers about Taylor. Most were suprised, but highly excited and congratulatory. Talked to Ben, who works at Shane Co....he said he'll hook us up.

Got Taylor's VM each time I tried calling him today. He left a cute one back for me, I saved it and replayed it. Oh...how would it be to not live so far away....

Visit taught Barbie, who is headed to Bear Lake tomorrow. I'm jealous, her cabin rocks.

Met with Richard Hammond, from Family Financial Solutions. Talked about my options for refinancing my house. My best option looks like doing a 80/20 second mortgage...I'll build equity faster, and won't have to pay $55/mo in mortgage insurance. I've gotta get Steve off the loan, and my ARM resets in November so my payment would be increasing about $120/mo. He's going to run my credit check and see what I qualify for...and we'll meet again next week. Too bad Taylor has less than ideal job history right now...co-signing on the loan would make it much easier to qualify. Not quite sure how to report my income from Linda, though.

Heading to bed to sing to Rosie and read my scriptures. Taylor will be home from work in 45 minutes. Can't wait to talk to my sweetie.

Sunday, July 25th, 2004

Thursday
Dinner, talk by the Temple, and "Bourne Identity" at Taylor's apartment. Slept over at Ralin's and had a great talk.

Friday
Saw earlybird showing of "Bourne Supremacy" at Provo Towne Center. Walked around the mall and looked at rings. I want a sapphire. Bought a purple bass guitar. Spent evening at my parents house checking out bass tabs.

Saturday
Spent morning cleaning and watching Days of '47 parade. Met Taylor in the afternoon and watched "Can't Buy Me Love." ("I want to be with you in a sea of deep blue, together at last....together as two") Visited Gigi and Pop (Grandma and Grandpa Parry) Had a very good talk with them, they seemed very impressed with Taylor. Grandpa talked a lot about his life....war stories, living in California, his mission, getting married as a BYU student and optometry school...I now wish I would have had a tape recorder to save it.

We dropped Rosie off at Karen's house again, and headed back to my house. He played a little guitar for me, I played a little bass for him. Crashed on the couch for a little nap. Talked about the future. Went to Usana for the Ultimate Utah celebration (Ryan Shupe, Peter B, Thurl Bailey, Jericho Road, Imagine, Eclipse, Saliva Sisters and Salsa Brava) We had great seats, saw Court and the rest of the JR fan club. I had texted Kirk earlier in the week asking him to have Eclipse sing "All My Life," which they did. We headed up to the lawn to lay out and watch the fireworks, and amazingly enough, the traffic wasn't terrible.

Picked up some late night Wendys, and talked for a couple hours, making tentative wedding plans. October seems too far away, we may need to move it up to end of September. We talked a lot about finances, him going to school part time for this semester, and job hunting. He's thinking about trying to get a job with IHC. That would be so cool!

Sunday
Taylor crashed on the couch, and we talked in the morning before picking up Rosie. I made breakfast when we got back home....it was so wonderful, we really felt like a family this morning, and I couldn't have been happier.

Church was wonderful, sacrament meeting talks on Self-Reliance, SS on Faith, and RS on Teaching our Children. The RS lesson had a lot of emphasis on temple covenants and sealings. I made an appointment to see Bishop Peterson Tuesday. I need to get on getting my sealing to Steve cancelled. I told a few ward members about Taylor, and the response was quite positive. I have several people ready to help out with plans. Still not sure about how to do a reception and the other formalities, but answers will come in time.

Just made PB chocolate chip cookies. Time to feast!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Ella Fitzgerald sings Gershwin

Cookies and Sinatra

My Favorite Cookies
1 C. margarine softened
1 C. Sugar
1 C. Brown Sugar
2 Eggs
2 T. Cinnamon
1 T. Vanilla
1 t. baking soda
3 C. Flour
1 t. Baking powder
1/2 t. salt
12 oz chocolate chips

Cream first 6 ingredients together.
In separate bowl mix remaining ingredients together, except chocolate chips.
In large bowl, combine two mixtures with a fork, only. Add chips.
Form into balls and smash slightly on pan.
Bake 6-8 min at 400 degrees.
Altitude takes about 3 cups of flour or a little more. Dough should be dryish...

Fly Me To The Moon by Frank Sinatra
Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

Farewell Elder Maxwell

Elder Neal A. Maxwell Dies After Long Battle With Leukemia

JULY 22, 2004, SALT LAKE CITY — Elder Neal A. Maxwell, a member of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, died last night after a lengthy battle with leukemia. He was 78 years of age.

Elder Maxwell died at home surrounded by his family at 11:45 p.m. Wednesday night. It was the 23rd anniversary of his call to the Quorum of Twelve Apostles, one of the highest ranking bodies of the Church.

Funeral arrangements are pending.

Elder Maxwell served as a member of the Presidency of the First Quorum of the Seventy from 1976 to 1981, and as an Assistant to the Twelve from 1974 to 1976 before being called as an apostle. A lifelong educator, Elder Maxwell was executive vice president at the University
of Utah at the time of his appointment as the Commissioner of Education for the Church Educational System, where he served from 1970 to 1976.

Prior to his Church callings, Elder Maxwell held a variety of administrative and teaching positions with the University of Utah in Salt Lake City. He earlier served as a legislative assistant to United States Senator Wallace F. Bennett of Utah.

He has written some 30 books on religious topics with one of the most recent receiving a literary prize for LDS literature. Earlier he authored many articles on politics and government for national, professional, and local publications.

A political science graduate of the University of Utah, Elder Maxwell also earned a master’s degree in that field from the same school. He later was awarded an Honorary Doctor of Laws degree from the University of Utah; an Honorary Doctor of Letters degree from Westminster College, Salt Lake City; an Honorary Doctor of Laws degree from Brigham Young University,
Provo, Utah; an Honorary Doctor of Humanities degree from Utah State University, Logan, Utah; an Honorary Degree from Ricks College, Rexburg, Idaho; and an Honorary Degree from the Salt Lake Community College.

In the fall of 1998, the University of Utah announced the establishment of the Neal A. Maxwell Presidential Endowed Chair in Political Theory, Public Policy, and Public Service.

Prior to his call to direct the Church’s worldwide education system, he had served the Church in a variety of positions, including bishop of Salt Lake City’s University Sixth Ward; a member of the General Board of the Y.M.M.I.A., the Church’s youth organization; a member of the Adult Correlation Committee; and as one of the first regional representatives of the Twelve. As a young man, he served two years as a missionary in eastern Canada.

Elder Maxwell has served as a director of several business firms, including Questar Corporation, Questar Pipeline, and Deseret News Publishing Company, and has been active in public service such as chairman of the Utah Constitutional Revision Commission.

In 1967 Elder Maxwell received the Liberty Bell award for public service from the Utah State Bar, and in 1973 he was named Public Administrator of the Year by the Institute of Government Service at Brigham Young University, Provo, Utah.

Elder Maxwell and his wife, the former Colleen Hinckley, are the parents of four children.

So Much to Say

So Much to Say
Wow....I haven't updated in a few days....and when life is eventful....the posts tend to be clipped short to fit it all in. Here's the rundown:

Sunday:
Watched the MoTab's 75th Anniversary Broadcast. I want to be a part of them someday.
Church was excellent. Feeling the spirit more and more each week.
Rosie still in Idaho for Butler Family Reunion. Slight pangs of sadness.

Met Martel and Sharol, Taylor's uncle and aunt in Sandy. They live right by GG & Pop's place on Campus Drive. They have beautiful twins, Bailey and Bennett, six weeks old. It was so fun to hold little bebees! And Taylor was dang cute holding them too. Ate some of Sharol's BTS cake, and I stumbled over trying to make a joke about it (I bet its not as good as mine!) Took some nice pictures from their balcony, and felt very comfortable. (Much more confortable than it EVER was meeting the Perrys)

Took a drive up Big Cottonwood Canyon, listening to a mix CD Taylor made for me (Including: Hold Me Now, For Once in My Life, Sarah singing Rainbow Connection, and GROWING PAINS theme song!) Drove up to Brighton, watched the clouds float and sun set. Enjoyed each other's company...it was terribly nice to be together alone. I can't even count the times he told me how beautiful I am. *sigh*

Monday:
No concentration at work. Listened to Fumbling Towards Ecstasy on repeat.

After work, ran to pick up a pizza for dinner and Rosie. Taylor came over to have dinner and work on my computer while I got ready for the concert. Chatted with Tonya about wedding plans....funny how I was a little jealous of her. She took some pics of us on my digital camera, but unfortunately they didn't come out very clear. I vamped up my hair with some big sexy curls (which I don't think I've done in months and months) Taylor said I looked great, but he likes me with my hair straight better.

We got to the E-Center with enough time to hit up the radio station drawings. I ran into Jorge from work with his wife, they looked almost as happy to be there as Tay and I. We were in section 103, which was just a few feet left of the stage, and we were in the center of row 13. EXCELLENT seats...worth the $150 I forked out for them. Butterfly Boucher was the opening act, who also opened for BNL. She is very cool, need to download "Little White Dash."

As for Sarah....words cannot describe how incredible the show was. She opened with "Fallen." The stage was very cool....almost a fantasy/LOTR landscapey thing going on. We were close enough to the stage to check out her facial expressions, but we were very very close to the video screen, so nothing was left up to the imagination. Her set list was amazing...the WHOLE Afterglow album, most of Surfacing and Fumbling, and a few early songs I didn't recognize. She even did a little "You are my Sunshine," and Blackbird. I could go on and on for hours about how amazing it was, if you want the full rundown....contact me!

I ended up buying her postcard set, and a poster of Afterglow. It was pouring rain as we went out to the car. Traffic wasn't too terrible to get out and get home. When we pulled up to my house, Taylor said how he wished the night didn't have to end there. He walked me to my door, and realized that he hadn't put my computer back together. So he came in, and he joked "You know, we're going to have to put my computer at this desk!" And from then on out, or conversation had a very positive spin towards the future. He didn't propose, but he said that nothing could make him happier than the thought of me being his wife. And once that topic is mentioned, it's hard not to fanasize about what that would be like. This should be an interesting next few months. We stayed up talking until 3 am, and I didn't want the night to end.

Tuesday:
Work was a bugger, having only 3.5 hours of sleep. Team meeting was okay, found out I'll be shortly moving cubicles again. *ick*
Went to Enrichment night, Preparedness night. Tried freeze dried refried beans and other lovely food storage creations.
Had a very very nice phone convo with Taylor, reminiscing of the previous night. Didn't want to use up all of his minutes on his phone, so we IM'd for a while as he did homework and I made a child support spreadsheet. Steve owes me $300, but there's still the inheritance issue. Ohhh....I can't wait until he gives up on getting his money back. Grrrr

Wednesday:
Nothing too exciting, other than talking to Taylor a few times. He called me at work, and my coworkers joked about me saying "I love you too," at the end of the conversation.
Picked up some CDs at the library to burn, almost done, then heading home to bed

Field Trip to Provo

The trip to Provo was long...just over 90 minutes. We went to his friend Eric's place at Wymount, and ate dinner with him, his wife Jennifer, and their daughter Hayley. We grilled steaks, and I brought my broccoli salad. Jennifer was very cool...she and I had a talk while the guys were at the grill. I asked her for the scoop on Taylor....things about him she knows that I might never know. She said that Taylor is a video game addict...he loses track of time easily when it's on. He forgets things at their house every time he's over, and he detests green beans. She did say that he is a very quality guy...very few men in the world as gentlemanly and genuinely kind as Taylor. She said he will treat me like gold.

After dinner, we headed back to his apartment. We went through stacks of pictures. There was stuff from mission, Ricks....and then lots of pics of him with Amanda. He kept saying he was embarrased that there were so many. I told him not to sweat it...it was kinda fun to see the pics of him with such a silly-lovestruck grin on his face. Wonder if he smiles like that when he thinks of me. I snatched two pics of him...one was from three weeks ago at Disneyland. (he is trying to pull the sword out of the stone) The other is from christmas 2002 in front of the SL Temple (he looks soooooo good in it)

Rosie, Taylor, snuggled up on the couch to watch the Simpsons. Funny how we laughed in the exact same places. It was amazing how "at home" I felt...the three of us together. I was sad to be sick...I was nervous to be close to Taylor because I don't want him to get sick. Even today, I'm still congested and coughing and a bit feverish. But he still insisted on kissing me goodbye. Silly goof. When we were hugging goodbye, I asked him if it was awkward for him to have Rosie there. He said that it will be a big adjustment to jump into a father role, but he laughed and said that he won't miss the diaper disasters and midnight feedings. Interesting how he put such a positive future spin on the conversation...kinda like "when," not "if."

Who knows though....no need to hurry this. I'm just enjoying it while it's here.

Name Analysis

Name Analysis...Nicole and Taylor

Nicole
Although the name Nicole creates the urge to understand others, we emphasize that it limits your vision, tuning you to technical details. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid and elimination system. The name of Nicole has created a congenial nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world. Peaceful and settled conditions appeal to you and you are naturally desirous of having the security of a home, where your life could follow a definite pattern, and where you would not have to make major decisions. You find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because you lack confidence, and also because you dislike any issues which create dissension between people. Procrastination is a weakness of your nature, causing an inability always to complete your plans or to concentrate for long.

Taylor
Although the name Taylor creates an interest in the deeper aspects of life, we emphasize that it causes a blunt expression that alienates others. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the lungs, heart, bronchial area, and tension or accidents to the head. As Taylor you have a great love of nature and the out-of-doors, and could have a desire to be in an occupation which takes you outdoors and involves you with the products of the earth. All the finer things of life and beauties of nature are an inspiration to you and you are attracted to the mysteries of nature. Difficulty in expression results in your being too positive, blunt, and candid in speech. Although you are easily offended by others, you do not show it. You crave affection and understanding, but rarely find it as others do not understand you and accuse you of being cool and aloof.

Words from Bruce

Thursday, July 15th, 2004

Current mood:	good
Current music:	Police "Every Little Thing She Does is Magic"

Last night Emily and I chatted for the first time since we went out to Kneaders for her b-day. Funny how we always SAY we are going to get together more often, and it doesn't seem to happen. I do know that I am so grateful to have her as my friend. Most times when I'm having a dilemma...the advice she gives me seems to be much more relavent to my situation than anyone else's. She gave me a link to a Bruce R McConkie Talk, which has given me a lot to ponder about. This was a good snippet...

Well, do you want a wife? Do you want anything that's right and proper? You go to work and you use the agency and power and ability that God has given you. You use every faculty, you get all the judgment that you can centered on the problem, you make up your own mind, and then, to be sure that you don't err, you counsel with the Lord. You talk it over. You say, "This is what I think; what do you think?" And if you get the calm, sweet surety that comes only from the Holy Spirit, you know you've reached the right conclusion; but if there's anxiety and uncertainty in your heart, then you'd better start over, because the Lord's hand is not in it, and you're not getting the ratifying seal that, as a member of the Church who has the gift of the Holy Ghost, you are entitled to receive.

"Yea, when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that he may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou risest in the morning let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day" (Al. 37:37). If you learn how to use the agency that God has given you, and if you try to make your own decisions, and if you reach conclusions that are sound and right, and you counsel with the Lord and get his ratifying seal of approval upon the conclusions you've reached, then you've received revelation, for one thing; and for another thing, you're going to have the great reward of eternal life, be lifted up at the last day. Now, we're not all equal by any means; some have one talent and capacity and some another. But if we use the talents we have, somehow we'll come out all right.

Not only did I like that because of the counsel, but it includes one of my favorite scriptures...

Alma 37:35-37
35 O, remember, my son, and learn wisdom in thy youth; yea, learn in thy youth to keep the commandments of God.

36 Yea, and cry unto God for all thy support; yea, let all thy doings be unto the Lord, and whithersoever thou goest let it be in the Lord; yea, let all thy thoughts be directed unto the Lord; yea, let the affections of thy heart be placed upon the Lord forever.

37 Counsel with the Lord in all thy doings, and he will direct thee for good; yea, when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that he may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou risest in the morning let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day.

Now a few quotes that have been on my mind....

"Even if you cannot always see that silver lining on your clouds, God can, for He is the very source of the light you seek. "
—Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

"When you push against the boundaries of experience into the twilight of the unknown, the Lord will strengthen you. The beauty of your eternal soul will begin to unfold."
-Elder Richard G. Scott

"The devil is ready to blind our eyes with the things of this world, and he would gradly rob us of eternal life, the greatest of all gifts. But it is not given to the devil and no power will ever be given to him to overthrow any Latter-Day Saint that is keeping the commandments of God. There is no power given to the adversary of ment's souls to destroy us if we are doing our duty. If we are not absolutely honest with God, then we let the bars down, then we have destroyed part of the fortifications by which we are protected, and the devil may come in. But no man has ever lost the testimony of the Gospel, no man has ever turned to the right or to the left, who had the knowledge of the truth, who was attending to his duties, who was keeping the Word of Wisdom, who was paying his thing, who was responding to the calls and duties of his office and calling in the church."
-President Heber J. Grant

Tonight Rosie and I are going down to Provo to see Taylor. I'm so excited. It seems like ages since Sunday when I saw him last. Unfortunately I'm not feeling so hot...I've got a sinus infection. Started antibiotics yesterday afternoon and feel better this morning than I did in the evening....so hopefully I'll be feeling good tonight. Rosie's still got her cough and runny nose, but not feverish and achy like Monday. Guess I'd better not kiss Taylor tonight...don't want him to get sick. Made my infamous broccoli salad, and we'll be having steaks on he grill.
Hopefully traffic won't be too bad getting down there...I'm going to take Bangerter I think.

Only 4 days till Sarah!

Rosie's latest trauma and spiritual decisions

I was in the kitchen after I got off work and I suddenly heard a massively frightening scream. "Mommy the bee stunged me!" So we iced it, put some sting remedy on, put on some Spongebob, and she's doing much better. What's up with all of these weekly incidents? Makes me feel like a bad mommy.

Last night I was chatting with Hedger about how he and his fiance progressed from friends to more. It was cool to hear his story...he's sending out his announcements tomorrow. They aren't having a reception, just a little family shindig after the temple. I've thought a lot about what I'd like for a wedding if I do remarry. I feel like my wedding arrangements with Steve were a little more grandiose than necessary. It wasn't flamboyant by any means, but there were somethings that could have been omitted and I would have been happy. IFF Taylor and I were to get married, it would have to be a much smaller affair...and I'd be happy with that.

I can't remember the last time I felt so devoted and firm in my spirituality. It's amazing the difference I've felt in my life since I changed my attitude from "How bad can I be and still be good?" to "How can I draw nearest to my Savior?" I've been keeping up on my daily study of the Book of Mormon and Jesus the Christ. And my prayers have felt so much more purposeful. Rosie had a REAL lesson out of the manual for FHE this week, and she seemed to understand the things I read directly from the text. I feel like I'm on the right track. Back when I was visiting with Bishop Monson in January, he told me that as soon as I figured out some of my demons, gave myself some time to heal, and found my way back to having the spirit in my life...finding a good worthy priesthood holder would soon follow. And the blessing Dad gave me 6 weeks ago mentioned something to that effect...that there was a great worthy man that would soon come into my life.

I wonder if these feelings I have for Taylor are founded and real...and that the "answers" I am getting to my prayers are what the Spirit wants me to hear (not just what I WANT to hear) Last night I was talking to Heidi about the ways she felt when her and Robby started dating. It reminded me a lot of Taylor and I. She said, "When you feel right about it, consider it a blessing from Heavenly Father. Don't sit around and rationalize it. If things are meant to be, and you are keeping the commandments and drawing nearer to Him, you will know what to do."

My thoughts have been turning a lot to the temple lately. I have faith that I'm doing what is necessary to make it there worthily very soon. And I think it will be important to recommit to frequent temple attendance. I'm sure Em will be willing to be my temple buddy. And I also would like to attend with Taylor. However, I do feel a bit of hesitation with that because of what happened with Tim (on our "supposedly righteous" temple day) I have been having a very strong draw to the Mt. Timpanogas Temple. I've thought a lot about the day I went through that temple for the open house (back in '96 I think?) I remember walking into the bride's room, and just being overcome with the spirit...I couldn't even stand up. I had a whispering at that time. I don't remember the exact words, but I remember the feeling. Good things were to happen to me in that temple. I don't know if that is where I'd choose to be sealed, but I think my first time back to the Temple, I want it to be at Mt. Timp.

I was looking through my computer, and was very pleased to realize that I had saved several IMs from Taylor! These were some of our first conversations, and I though it would be cool to have them posted and easily readable. Also, I thought I'd give a quick run-down of our first few dates...just for "posterity's sake."

First Email to Me
From : Taylor Bullock
Sent : Wednesday, April 7, 2004 11:02 PM
To : cuteculturechick@hotmail.com
Subject : Hello there!

Hey cuteculturechick, I just wanted to introduce myself, my name's Taylor Bullock. Your profile intrigued me and I thought that we could get to know each other a little better. A little bit about me, I'll be starting my final year at BYU this spring (and am SO looking forward to being done.) I'm an international relations major and would like to work for the government eventually as an analyst. Time will tell, but I'm the oldest of 7, the youngest is seven (she's the cute redhead in the pictures) and I'm a California boy, grew up in the subburbs of LA. I love dancing (especially big band), movies, and I sing a little (or took a semester of voice lessons at any rate). I served my mission in La Paz, Bolivia, and have been home about 3 and a half years. I graduated from Ricks with an AA in Spanish and International Studies, and have been plugging away at school ever since.

I'd love to hear a little bit about you, your family, ect. You're a U2 fan? I think we could get along! Your daughter is adorable by the way, nice work! I've got some studies to take care of before bed, but take care, until next time.....

Sincerely,
Taylor

First Date
We met in Murray at Baja Fresh. Did a little of the basic "getting to know you chitchat. I was suprised to hear that he had only been out of his engagement for a month, and was suprised that he said he felt ready to give dating a chance again. I remember him distinctly telling me, "You are an amazing lady," for the trials and adversity that I seem to be handling so well. He also said I reminded him of his mother. I instantly fell for his smile. After eating, we had a few minutes to kill...so we went in my car and listened to John Mayer. We sang along, and discussed our other music interests. He may have grabbed my hand for a squeeze once or twice, and the date ended with a hug.

Work Encounter
Taylor was working at Sugarhouse Circuit City at the time. I stopped by the store on my way to working for Linda one day....a few days after our first date. I brought Rosie along, and we browsed the computer section and talked for a few minutes with him when he wasn't with a customer. There was a flat-screen monitor that had an animated fishtank design that looked a lot like "Finding Nemo." Rosie asked about Taylor a few times after, "Where is the boy with the fish tv?"

Second Date
He picked me up at my house, and we went to a hole in the wall mediterranean restaurant in Fort Union. He got the info off of the internet, and was embarrassed that it wasn't all that the website made it out to be. I don't remember the conversations much, but I do remember enjoying my time with him. We went to the Sandy dollar theater, and he let me pick the flick. I chose "The Home Teachers," which he moaned and complained about. I thought it was pretty stupid too. He didn't have cash on him, and I threw down the money to see the movie. He said, "My sense of chivilry can't handle that....I need to make it up to you." So we went to Baskin Robbins and got ice cream. A few hand squeezes, and an hug at the end.

Tuesday, July 13th, 2004

Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
Twitterpation is a unique feeling. Forget to eat, daydreaming, and being accused of having a "smile that won't wash away." Nothing too thrilling went on at work, but it was a nice day nonetheless. I listened to some of the CDs Taylor burned for me (Andrea Bocelli, James Taylor, U2, and Sting) Told a few coworkers about my boy, some seemed happy, some rolled their eyes over ANOTHER guy in my life. Tried calling him on my lunch, but just got voice mail. I'm pathetic for wanting to talk to him all the time. Also picked up my Sarah tickets from the ebay guy. (We met at Fazolis. mmmm baked ziti) Monday will be such a great night!

Checked Dan's LJ today, where he expressed some disgust over reading about my budding romance with Taylor. I sent him an email of affirmation...telling him how much the time we spent together meant to me, and wishes for a great future. We IM'd for a while, I appreciate him humoring me with a few details of my love life. "I never meant to cause you trouble, I never meant to do you harm."

Tay and I IM'd also. I love it when he ends with "ciao bella!" He and I talked about the Five Love Languages. I so need to dig up that book for reference. He said he doesn't think that there is one specific way that he wants to be shown love. I guess I'll have to be creative. I said that mine was time and kind words. "LOL That won't be easy for me!" We also talked on the phone after 9 (when his night minutes kick in) and we breached a few of the sticky subjects, like how Steve is still on the title of the house (I still am not certain on what I should do...he was saying I should sell my house at a loss and move in with my parents to save money. Not sure how I feel about that!) But I expressed some of my concerns about abandonment and self-doubt. He said that I have nothing to worry about. We made a promise to be honest, and if there are doubts and concerns about our relationship...we need to work them out as they come, not let them fester and get worse. I worry that I still have too much baggage. I've been thinking of going back to my counselor.

I feel like I've had so much extra time in the past few days! I haven't been wasting copious amounts of text messages, haven't made plans with other guys, and I don't really miss it too much. I wish Taylor lived closer though, so we could spend our time together. We're getting together Thursday night in Provo (possibly with his best friend who is married and their kid. Should be interesting)'

I've been thinking about my tendencies to rush things in relationships. It's hard not to when things feel so right. I wonder why I have such a desire to make a permanent relationship arrangement. I should be taking it easy, enjoying the time we have as it comes. Must admit that I'm sad I'm not with him tonight, since it was an option.

In other news....I've been looking into school again. Weber's Respiratory Therapy program is quite intriguing, and I like the idea of the distance courses and the Salt Lake Campus. Still praying about it...but I think I'll fill out financial aid applications this week. Ah, to be a student again!

Quick Meme (courtesy of two emails I received)
CD in player: Sarah McLachlan "Afterglow"
Current Read: Jesus The Christ by James E Talmage
Last Purchase: Sarah McLachlan tickets off ebay (13th row, less than box office price!)
Next Purchase: Probably application fees for Weber State
Last movie seen: The Terminal
Next movie you want to see: The Notebook
Last Person you went out with: Taylor
Next person you want to go out with: Taylor
Last person you kissed: Taylor (my, I see a trend here)
Currently wearing: Burgandy dress and black sandals
Summer theme song: At the John Mayer concert, he said that "Clarity" was the official song for the middle of summer, and he hopes we "all find that special person to spend forever with."

Historical Blogging/IMing

Monday, July 12th, 2004
Taylor says: I'm glad you got some quality time with Rosie at least
Nicole says: Yeah....it was soooo nice, I can't remember the last time when I had a whole day at home with her. Oh, I got her a CTR ring today...she is so happy
Taylor says: very cool, does she know what it means?
Nicole says: "choose the wight way"
Taylor says: nice
Nicole says: when I was waking up from my nap, Rosie started jumping on the bed singing "Book of Mormon Stories" Oh, and it was so cute....I asked Rosie if he liked you...
Taylor says: oh yeah?
Nicole says: she said "yeah, he's really nice and I like that he kisses you a lot. I think he loves you this much!" (and she held out her arms all the way)
Taylor says: lol, nice
Nicole says: so do you? (with arms all the way out?)
Taylor says: yeah I do!
Nicole says: I've been just floating with happiness today
Taylor says: that's a great change of pace! Happiness and your daughter
Nicole says: so apparently I'm quite the heartbreaker...I've turned down 4 dates this week
Taylor says: wow, I feel partially responsible...
Nicole says: I wouldn't have it any other way. And someone had ordered flowers to be delivered to me tomorrow....he was really mad. Luckily he was able to get a refund LOL
Taylor says: lol, nice. There are a couple girls calling me and I've been trying to avoid them.....but the pain will have to be faced!
Nicole says: will the pain be worth it?
Taylor says: all signs point to positive!
Nicole says: WOO HOO! Ah Taylor, you're the best
Taylor says: I do what I can
Nicole says: well, what you're doin' is working for me
Taylor says: anytime girl

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: When We Dance, Sting

It's hard to believe that this could feel so right

Sunday morning I had planned on attending a singles ward with Kellie, since Rosie would still be gone. But I had absolutely no desire to do so after my night with Taylor. I think that my prayer and scripture study was much more advantageous to setting myself on the meat market to be observed. I chatted with Steve for a few this morning, gave him the rundown on the Taylor situation...and declined the Sarah tix. I think I want to suprise Taylor with tickets. I picked up Rosie around noon from Steve. She had such a gorgeous flower girl dress from Selena's wedding. I think I will need to get her picture taken in it. Taylor and I made plans to get together after church.

Sacrament meeting was wonderful. I partook of the sacrament for the first time since January. I don't think it has ever been so meaningful....

As now our minds review the past we know we must repent
The way to thee is righteousness, the way thy life was spent
Forgiveness is a gift from Thee we seek with pure intent
With hands now pledged to do Thy work, we take the Sacrament

Sunday school was also excellent. RS was on principles of financial security. We discussed the blessings of paying a full tithe. That reminded me of Friday night, when Taylor called me when I was at the dance. He had called to find out which CDs I wanted him to burn for me. He had joked, "Ah, the blessings that come from paying your tithing." It was cool.

Scripture of the day: Alma 26:35-37

Now have we not reason to rejoice? Yea, I say unto you, there never were men that had so great reason to rejoice as we, since the world began; yea, and my joy is carried away, even unto boasting in my God; for he has all power, wisdom and all understanding; he comprehendeth all things, and he is a merciful Being, even unto salvation, to those who will repent and believe on his name.

Now if this is boasting, even so will I boast; for this is my life and my light, my joy and my salvation, and my redemption from everlasting wo. Yea, blessed is the name of my God, who has been mindful of this people, who are a branch of the tree of Israel, and has been lost from its body in a strange land; yea, I say, blessed be the name of my God, who has been mindful of us, wanderers in a strange land.

Now my brethren, we see that God is mindful of every people, whatsoever land they may be in; yea, he numbereth his people, and his bowels of mercy are over all the earth. Now this is my joy, and my great thanksgiving; yea, and I will give thanks unto my God forever. Amen.

I invited Taylor to come for dinner with my family. I went over straight after church so I had some time to be with my fam before he arrived. I gave my mom a heads up on the evening before, so she could be prepared. I had told her that Taylor had said that he loved me, and she got so excited and gave me a huge hug. I made him a mix cd of songs I like, but I think there might have been an error on it...I'll have to ask him if it worked okay. We had tacos, then watched part of the Pearl Awards. I was hoping to see ME on camera, but the only shot I was in had my head cut off. LOL.

After watching the Pearls, Taylor and I took a walk on the Jordan River Parkway. We walked hand in had, enjoying the scenery and getting to know each other...with a little talk that nudged toward future plans. He asked me what my plans were for the next six months. I had said that I would continue to work, and make the decision about school (as to which program, full vs part time, and where to attend) I had told him that when I have prayed about it, I hadn't ever gotten any definite positive answers. He said "You do need to make a decision though. The Lord can't direct a parked car." He also said that he'd like to be a part of helping me make my decision.

We did a little "comparison-ing", how when we date people there is a a natural tendency to see how people compare to others we have been interested in. Both of us have dated several people in the two months we didn't see each other. He said that he always compared them to Amanda. But with me, I don't even compare...I stand on my own. (What an amazing compliment) He's never dated or been interested in someone divorced or someone with a child, but with me it doesn't intimidate him. We discussed how he had gotten engaged so quickly previously, and had vowed to take things slow with his next relationship. But we both know the feelings are there. We would be so good for each other. He has been good for my self-confidence, giving me affirmations like "Don't ever doubt your self worth again," and "You are a truly amazing woman." How can a person not feel loved when hearing that and knowing that it is meant in all honesty and adoration?

This was one of the most beautiful and fulfilling conversations I have ever had. We talked about the importance of keeping our behavior in check, because nothing is worth losing out on the temple marriage opportunity. He didn't propose to me, obviously....but I can definitely see us going in that direction....starving student and all. I was looking in his mingle profile today, and loved some of his comments...

If I had $10 million... I guess one doesn't need a lot of Babylon to be happy. A nice house in the suberbs would be cool. (maybe one by the beach too!) I love to travel and would like to spend sometime in Europe and just getting to know this beautiful world, hopefully going on a lot of missions. Oh yeah, a car that doesn't break down on me every few months would be way nice!

My perfect day would be... Going up Pacific Coast highway in a convertible (I can dream, can't I?) with good music, good friends (or even better, my mate), and good weather. Most importantly, school has to be the most distant thing from my mind. I hope for a day in the future when I can come home from a great job and see my wife and kids and just know in that moment that all is right with the world!

One final thing I'd like to mention... Nah, I'm not that complicated! :)

Needless to say, I'm one happy camper!

Make a wish, say a prayer, take my hand and stay forever

Saturday I didn't have much planned, and Wade called me to see if I'd like to see a movie. We went and saw "The Terminal." Very good flick. And we got ice cream after. Very nice guy, although young. I was a bit anxious to get to my date with Taylor.

He picked me up around 6:30 and we headed up to This is the Place. He had taken my hand in his almost as soon as we got in the car, which he had never done before. He had made a mix CD of Sarah McLachlan, Sting, and John Mayer. When "Possession" came on, and we were both singing along....we gave me a look that was much more than friendly. It was a sultry hot evening, sprawled out on blankets under a blazing sun. I got a little bit sunburned, but the gorgeous sunset made up for it. Peter B and Nancy Hanson were headliners, along with some other LDS performers. However, we felt like we were a mile back and the sound system was poor, so the concert was just background noise to some wonderful conversations.

My attraction to him was nearly immediate. Beginning with holding hands, and progressing to cuddling, and eventually our first kiss. It was kinda funny because when Peter B came out and everyone started screaming...I said to Taylor "Now that's what it's all about!" And he replied..."No, this is." And he pulled me in and I was a goner. There were a lot of kisses...but it wasn't like we made out. Just a few sweet pecks here and there. And when he pulled me into his arms it just felt so....right. But it wasn't just about our physical attraction, I also was impressed on many other levels. (Mentally, spiritually, etc...) And wow, how wonderful his compliments are! "How did you get so dang beautiful?"

We ate dinner at Noodles and Co. He told me about the rough life he's had with his family (5 divorces, father in prison, psycho sister, etc...) And I gave him more background on my relationship with Steve, and he seemed so appalled and disgusted and the things that I'd been through in my marriage. He said that nobody deserves to be treated so terribly, and he'd never do anything to make me feel less of a person. We had joked earlier in the week that he has too much free time this summer and he needed a hobby....he said he wanted me to be his hobby. He made it very clear that he wanted to be with me, and at the end of the evening he told me that he loved me. "I love you, girl" were his exact words, and that is the first time a man has expressed that before I had.

I have been on dates with many people since my divorce...30 or so I'd guess. And even with the ones I've had a connection to...none of them have made me felt this way, and taken away my desire to date other men. But it didn't take long for me to decide that I didn't want to be anywhere else.

I spent a lot of time on my knees, reading my scriptures and studying my patriarchal blessing today. And I had a VERY strong impression that I need to allow this relationship to develop. When I was dating Steve, and had asked those same questions, my answer was to not end it, just allow it to happen and see where it went. And reading in my PB about the mate that I need to seek just sealed the deal, because I believe that Taylor would fulfill all these requirements.

I've been telling myself to take things slow when I found someone that I wanted to be serious with, but I have such a strong desire to pursue our relationship. As good as the answers to prayers felt today, I wonder if it is more the spirit saying it is right, or my own self wanting it to be right. Time will tell. I think that the distance between us having him in Provo may be advantageous, as hard as it will seem when we want to spontaneously get together. However, he has been thinking about moving to SLC because his friend is needing a roommate. Ah, how nice it would be....

Okay...I'm tired. I will talk about the Sunday night adventure later. I'm off to bed to "sleep just to dream him."

Flying Solo on Friday

Friday night I went to the Octapella concert alone at Brigham Young park. I had never seen them before, but they were very fun to see! They do a little cheezy choreography with the show, but they have some great numbers. I especially liked "Kiss the Girl," "Light in your Eyes," and "BALD-hemian Rhapsody." I would have bought their CDs had I brought cash. Tyson and I had mentioned getting together for the performance, but he ended up staying home.

Afterwards I went to Trolley Square for the Steve Ames dance. It was free (Ladies Night!) so I figured what the heck. I didn't know anyone but Mark Eborn (cute bookstore boy...who asked me if I wanted to M-O again. LOL) I met up with some girls and they were fun to chill with. I did some kareoke ("Building a Mystery") There were a few people at the dance which I loved chilling with. One was Bryce who was in SLC visiting from BYUI (originally from Cali) and he was a total cutie. Only been home from his mish for a month or so, so a bit on the awkward side....but we had a great time Kareokeing to "LOVE SHACK!" I also met Wade, who invited me to Dees with some other people.

There were eight of us at Dees. We played some fun icebreakers like Two Truths and a Lie, and Describing our First Kiss. Wade was pretty flirty with me, but a guy named Nate also caught my attention. He was a bit of a trophy boy (Duke grad, Marketing job with Zions Securities, drives a sweet bimmer, used to model for Quicksilver) and although we exchanged numbers, I doubt I'll hear from him again unless it is with this group. It's been a while since I've gone out after a dance, and I didn't get home until 4 am. I was sleepy, but it was nice having the option to sleep in until 9:30.

I am driving 85 in the kind of morning that lasts all afternoon....

Words to describe the John Mayer concert? Amazing? Incredible? Entertaining? Eclectic? Steve suprised me with a beautiful pink rose. We ate island food courtesy of the consession stands. Maroon 5 was very cool....although I think I enjoyed them more than Steve did. Lizzy is going to burn me a copy of "Songs about Jane." Ralin was there on a meet-and-greet. Boy was I jealous!

I have heard that John Mayer is one of the most underrated guitarists of the day, and I would tend to believe it. The video screens on the sides of the stage did many closeups of his hands, which were simultaneously burning up the strings. I was soooo impressed. Here is his set list courtesy of johnmayer.com

July 8, 2004 Salt Lake City,UT (NaCl-ville)

No Such Thing
New Deep
Whe Georgia
Come Back to Bed
My Stupid Mouth
Something's Missing
Not Myself
Clarity
Your Body is A Wonderland
Old Love
Bigger Than My Body
Encore: Tracing (new for next album) Back to You, Neon

If I ever was a John Mayer fan...it is now! I decided to spend some money on some souveniers. I got a pink and white wristband, some stickers, and a blue t-shirt with a construction vehicle that says "DIG!" on the back. Afterwards Steve and I went to Denneys and got peanut butter cup pie drizzled with caramel. MM MM Good! Very fun night, right up there with the BNL concert.

Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: Heavier Things

Rosie's Trauma

This evening Rosie and I went to Tyson's house. He made dinner, and we watched "Help!" in honor of Ringo's birthday. We were enjoying the movie as Rosie fed the dogs popcorn and ran around. Suddenly, we heard a clash of breaking glass, and Rosie started whimpering. She had tripped with a glass of water in her hands, and it shattered. There was a lot of blood dripping heavily, and shards of glass all in her arm and hands. We hurried over to Instacare to have them clean up the wounds. Rosie was so brave, she didn't even flinch as they tended to her wounds. No stitches were needed, just some Dermabond. She'll be good as new in a few days.

After Instacare, we went to Sonic for treats. Tyson said he felt like a daddy watching Rosie be hurt and worrying that things might go wrong. We bonded a lot tonight....and he kissed me on the cheek goodbye. What is up with this week and having people that I have had lengthy friendships with...suddenly have more than friendly feelings for? Tyson is yet another person I need to do some thinking about.

I'm not sure my heart/head can process so much information at this time. As we speak, I'm on the phone with Taylor...and I feel good things from him too. And I'm IMing Steve about our good times together. My life is a soap opera, but much cleaner. This is highly unusual. I need to figure things out....I don't want anyone to feel led on. I think my life is going manic again. I'm a bit scared.

John Mayer is tomorrow. How would it be to be there?

Hallelujah

Just got back from my appointment with Bishop Peterson. I'm floating. I haven't felt so good about my spiritual welfare in months. I'll be partaking of the sacrament again Sunday, and I'm on the "needs a calling" list. And if I keep things up...I may be back at the temple next month. I can't describe how wonderful it feels. There are a few challenges he gave me...

1. Daily scripture study,out of the Book of Mormon....alone and with Rosie
2. Daily Prayer, alone and with Rosie
3. FHE
4. Read Jesus the Christ, at least one page a day
5. Be careful with dating. Anyone one pushes for a physical relationship before anything else is not someone who will encourage me to keep my standards. Keep time alone and late hours to the minimum necessary. And don't introduce Rosie to a man I date until I have an idea that there is a potential commitment.

One thing that was helpful was the way he gave suggestions and guidelines, not binding restrictions. Course, with the way things were for me a few months ago...I know that I did need them. I have a tough road ahead of me....but I know I'm on the right track.

What a Weekend!

I don't think I can give a detailed account of the workings of this weekend...I got home at 6 am and am running on an hour of sleep. Here's the short version....

Sunday:
Church was excellent. Fast and Testimony Meeting, SS Lession on Ammon, and RS Lesson on Standing in Holy Places. The ward RS theme for the rest of the year is focused on feeling the love of Christ in our daily lives. The three part goal is:

Daily Personal Prayer
Daily Scripture Study
Standing in Holy Places

Sunday afternoon I had a family party at Grant and Hollie's...and I brought along a cute boy. Taylor and I had originally planned to attend a fireside, but when I heard about the barbeque, I jokingly asked if he would be interested....and he was! I was fully aware of the possible scandal talk that would ensue, but if there's any guy I know that I would take home to my family....Taylor is on the short list. We've only been out twice I think, and that was back in April. But he seemed to fit in with my family....almost too comfortably. When he put his arm around my shoulders, everyone's eyebrows raised. Hehehe. It was a fun dinner, I love having Taylor there and was sad that he could only stay two hours. He asked me out for Saturday. I'm excited *squeee!*

Monday:
Went out to breakfast with Steve. Strawberry stuffed french toast at IHOP. "Shut up, Honey!" We also played around with his guitar at his place, and I talked about how I wanted to buy a bass. We ended up pawn shop hopping, looking at basses. I was really tempted by a purple Ibanez, only $89. But it needed new strings. I still don't know if I can rationalize the purchase. But it was a very fun morning. Earlier in the week we'd had a talk about how he wanted to still hang out with me, but not on dates. Funny that I felt more sparks with him in the three or so hours we were together today than I had in months. Still suprised that he kissed me goodbye. Five months of friendship...and now this twist of fate. Time to contemplate this situation.

Went to Idaho with Dave. ROADTRIP!!! Good music, good conversation, good scenery. We talked a lot about our divorces and how we've coped. I cried listening to Matchbox Twenty with so many feelings close to the surface. I will do a MB20 post soon. We were going to eat at Big Jud's, but I got lost on the highway and couldn't find it. I ended up giving Dave a tour of BYU-Idaho. The Spori's all done now, and so is the Hinckley Building. And the hill is just splattered with married student housing. We ate at Gringos, soooo yummy. (and so many memories there!) We drove into IF, relaxed at Freeman Park by the river. Took a nice nap in the sun, and have a surburn to prove it. Texted Steve a little bit...it was wierd because part of me wanted to be with him. But Dave was a fun date. Fireworks were incredible!! 30 minutes of pure pyromaniacal splendor.

Traffic wasn't too terrible, but we were so tired that both of us had a hard time staying awake. Took turns driving, but it was a fight to stay on the road. Got to his apartment about 3 am...I crashed on his couch for a while to muster up some strength to drive home from Layton. Arrived in my bed just around 6 am. One hour of sleep. ZZZZZZZZ

Tuesday:
CIF and Credits, and Krystal Training. IDX was down for a while, so the team got to eat lunch together. Gave Karen the run-down on my weekend adventures.
Fought the sleepies all day long, but never fell asleep
Texted Kirk a bit. He's a hoot! Calls me the "amatuer"
Just finishing up this not-so-compact LJ. Time to get ready to see Bishop Peterson. I'm nervous.

The Man Behind the Drums

Happy Birthday Ringo...

When I'm Sixty-Four

When I get older
Losing my hair
Many years from now
Will you still be sending me a Valentine
Birthday greeting
Bottle of wine?
If I've been out 'til quarter to three
Would you lock the door?
Will you still need me
Will you still feed me
When I'm Sixty-Four?


I think it's time to pop in Help!

Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: John Mayer

Saturday in the Park....I think it was the 4th of July

I dropped Rosie off with Steve around noon. He decided to rent a car to take to Idaho because the beater Jetta was still not fixed. I feel better about him renting though, so he does't get stranded in a remote place like Arimo or something.

I went to Murray Park (via Noodles and Co. for Mushroom Stroganoff with steak) and enjoyed the music. There was a family doing bluegrass which was awesome. I hung out with the Moosebutter guys, and enjoyed their performance while selling their CDs with Courtenay (and I got a free teeshirt too!) Saw Bucket Brigade too.

I had plans for a double date with Chris from Logan. He was going to bring his friend Ryan, and I had Anna Berger come along. But as soon as I met him...I just had this wierd feeling. The first thing he said was..."We have two problems, we didn't reserve tickets for the show, and I lost her date." (the plan was to see "My Big Fat Utah Wedding" at Desert Star) We attempted a poly-date while trying to track down Ryan (dinner at Fuddruckers) but we couldn't ever find him. And Chris wanted to be apart of the Sandy parade as part of the Huntsman for Governer, but he was being a jerk to Anna...and I really had no desire to spend the next 6 hours with him to attend Stadium of Fire. So he took us back. I felt so lame for dragging Anna on this miserable adventure.

So I wasn't sure what to do for the evening. So I hopped on Mingle chat to fish around for something to do....

I knew about Peter B and Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband playing at Sugarhouse park, which was more interesting to me than Reba at Stadium of Fire. I called a few people with no luck, so I hopped into mingle chat to see if anyone was looking for something to do. I started whispering with yodysseus, who offered to accompany me to the park and fend off the wierdos. We had met previously at a mingle dinner at Chilis, but never got a chance to talk until this night.

We met at Sugarhouse Coffee, and got toasted salsa bagels. MMMM. Did the get to know you small talk...he's originally from Tennessee and his accent creeps out occasionally. It's quite cute. He goes to the U part time and works for Fox 13. He's divorced, has some kids, but seems quite content with his life right now. A good conversationalist, and great taste and diversity in music.

We sat on blankets, listened to Peter B and Ryan Shupe, saw some skydivers, and the Junction City Jazz Band. I realy love jazz and bluegrass, and Curtis was very knowledgeable on both music genres. We counted the stars (I said 18, he said 21 "plus the stars in your eyes") We enjoyed the fireworks display, which was much more impressive than the Usana show the night prior. After fireworks, we just snoozed in the blankets (not cuddling though) for an hour for the crowds and traffic to die down. We walked to his car which was closer, and he drove me to my car. A nice embrace in the parking lot, and he was on his way.

Rundown of Last Night

Last night was the first time I've seen Dan since I played fashion consultant for him last week, and the first time we've gone out since our breakup. (the real one!) I had originally asked Steve Best to go...let him know that I still value his friendship and get caught up...but he IM'd me the other night and said he'd changed his mind and wanted me to go with someone that I had more "interest" in. It kinda hurt, knowing that he thinks I'm only interested in furthering my social/love life. But I didn't want him to feel uncomfortable either.

So I asked Dan....and he accepted. We had dinner at Fazoli's, then headed the the Usana Ampitheater. We planned on doing the lawn seats, but when I was buying the tickets, they offered very close reserved seats for the same price. Better for the show, but the stage blocked the view for some of the fireworks. We came in as Nancy Hanson was performing. I soooo need to get some of her CDs! I ran into Mark Maughan and chatted with him for a few. He's so goofy, but he was saying how happy my dad made him (for installing a dish)

Eclipse peformed on this rickety sound stage. The audience area was mostly gravel and picnic tables. I was glad that I had a blanket to sit on. I was in the second row (behind Kirk and Shayne's fams......Ally is so cute!) Oh how I love seeing Eclipse live! Some of their show included....Live it on UP, Every Other Time, Coca-Cola Loser Auditions (including Dan doing a great Neil Diamond rendition) McDonalds Girl, Africa, Owner of A Lonely Heart, All My Life, a patriotic one (can't remember, I think it was God Bless America) Danny Boy, and Zoot Suit Riot. (sold the the girl in the second row!)

After the show I talked with the guys...they are all so friendly. I chatted the most with Brandon and Paul. Paul's little boy Ethan is sooooo adorable. He's got his daddy's gorgeous blue eyes (and Paul said to Ethan, "ahhh are you looking at her pretty eyes?") Dan seemed very impressed by Paul's sonic lip buzz. I did talk with Kirk for a brief moment. He was there is octoberrose from mingle (who I think he was at the Pearl Awards with) It's nice to be able to talk to him again without having a crush on him. LOL

We have very nice seats, and the show was AWESOME! Mormon Tabernacle Choir and Utah Symphony under the stars....how can you beat that? A few Mack Wilberg folk song arrangements, many patriotic pieces including a medley of the anthems to our armed forces (Army, Navy, Coast Guard, Air Force, Marines) as well as the Fanfare of the Champion (John WIlliams Olympic Theme) and BATTLE HYMN OF THE REPUBLIC. The fireworks show had it's moments...most of the big stuff was behind the stage so I missed it...but it was still fun to have the music and fireworks simultaneously.

Traffic was horrid, took about 45 min to get on the road. Afterwards we picked up Rosie and Dan gave me a guitar/singing concert. He played Blackbird and the Bachelor Blues. But when he started playing WILD THING, YOU REALLY GOT ME, and GIVE A LITTLE LOVE TO ME....I had to wonder if he was just playing them....or if it was how he really felt. He held hands out to the car, and I kissed him on the cheek when he left. There were some heart flutters tonight indeed. *sigh*

Today I am selling CDs for Moosebutter, and going on a double date with Anna from work and Chris from Logan (met him from hotornot) Desert Star and Stadium of Fire. It's all good.

Not enough time to LJ in the day!

Wednesday:
Stacey's last day. Mega-munchfest. Lots of Peg's Salsa. Food Glorious Food.
Talked to Justin on my lunch. Yep, better off without him I think.
Chatted in the evening online. Talked to a Travis Spackman who isn't the one I went to HS with. Played in mingle chat. Dropped my phonenumber to Anewworld, who wanted to get together for Thursday.
Weeded my yard. I have swollen hands to prove it.

Thursday:
Workfile recompiled. Finally under $300k! YAY.
Beautiful day. Spent my lunch on a blanket on the grass, soaking up the sun.
Rediscovered some 70's/80's favorite love songs thanks to Lizzy (Dan Fogelberg, Jim Croce, Air Supply)
Date with Mark. Dinner at Z'Tejas, Yummy Yummy Yummy (I got chicken stuffed chile rellenos) Helped him choose new jeans (fashion consultant once again) Bought some new Shea it Ain't So. Then we mozied over to Liberty Park to take a watch and see the sunset. Amused him with my extensive collection of pick-up lines.
Confirmed date with Taylor Sunday evening (Fireside at BYU)
Confirmed date with Dan Friday evening. I am so pumped to see Eclipse! And Mo-Tab and Utah Symphony will be great too. Nothing says patriotism like hearing Battle Hymn of the Republic live with fireworks in the background. (why am I suddenly thinking of UHF?)

I.E. Almost Poetry

I am working on an poem. I haven't written one in months. Inspired by some sticky conversations today, here goes....

Battered
Beaten
Stretched, Torn, Strained
Problematic Addict
Allowing all the pain
Allowing myself repeatedly
I find myself again
I lose myself again
Never forgotten bruises return
Forgotten scars re-emerge
I am alone again

Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Cranberries, John Mayer

The Scenery is Here, Wish you were beautiful

Friday at work? Zero focus. I got some busy work done, but I was so wanting to be out the door with the earlier groups that headed up. The only things that kept me sane were my silly inquisitive calls to John at Target Optical. He cracks me up!Rosie got a ride to my mom's house with Lisa Dobbins. I went up in the car with Christine Crossley and Wendy Hall. We had wonderful conversations of hillarity, especially about bad dates and singles wards. I talked with John for a while (my eyes have lost weight!) We got to the cabin around 8:15 and had a delicious potluck dinner. I dined on junk food, gossiped with the ladies, enjoyed the lake view, played some get-to-know-you games, and had a heavenly pedicure.

Morning breakfast and devotional were wonderful. So many wonderful people in the ward, I got to know a few people I didn't know before. On the way back we stopped at LaBeaus for raspberry shakes and I got some homemade amaretto cherry fudge. Came home with Mandy Erb, Valerie Davidson, and Amy Thelin. And oogled over Kaden (what an adorable child!) I talked a lot about the history leading up to my divorce and a lot of the issues that I have dealt with, including my sleep problems and medication worries. They were very understanding and had some good insight.

When I got back into town, I went out to Justin's house. We watched "Pirates of the Carribbean." I hadn't ever seen it yet, but I definitely enjoyed it....especially Orlando Bloom. (although I'm not too sure about the pencil-thin facial hair) I was so sleepy from two consecutive nights of sleep and I fell asleep a few times, so I will have to watch it again when I'm not so tired. We also took a drive up to Donner Park and had a talk. I am feeling some hesitations about Justin, and he's having some about me. So we discussed that and we decided to pursue a friendship in lieu of a relationship. I am okay with that. I'm not sure I'm ready to settle down with exclusivity yet either. We decided against seeing the fireworks together, and coming back from his house I missed about half of the fireworks. I was sad.

Ended up having ice cream with John though. We started watching "Ghost" but I was too tired. I need to get back on a good bedtime schedule. I am such a zombie this morning.

Today we get a new bishopric. I need to get ready for church now.

Less than 24 hours till the BARE LAKE SHORE

Thursday, June 24th, 2004

Less than 24 hours till the BARE LAKE SHORE
I am soooooo ready for a vacation. Granted, an overnight RS retreat at Bear Lake isn't as tempting or relaxing as say....a tropical island. But it is long overdue. Some girl talk, junk food, spiritual message, a long enough drive to feel like a little road trip. I'm stoked.

Rundown of Thursday:
Worked CWG denial report. Same stuff as last quarter. And all my correspondance. Yuck Yuck Yuck
Text message from Danimal. He's a bagger. I'm jealous (4 strikes in a row!)
Planned with the work ladies an escapade to watch "Campbells" play volleyball in the company tournament tomorrow. Mm Mm Good!
Talked with Justin at lunch. Joked about my arm owie. Can't wait to see him Saturday.
Declined an invite from Tyson to go to a movie tonight. Sad, but I had to work.
Dined on chinese cuisine and worked a little Quickbooks at Linda's. Clueless.

Went to take Rosie to drop her off at Steve's...he talked me into borrowing my car so he could run some errands. The car ride was the most we've talked face to face in months. Quite awkward, especially when he asked if we would ever get back together. I told him not to plan on it. And listening to him sing along to the radio made me remember how much it bugged me. A lot of things I don't miss...but some things I do miss. I really miss his family. I wonder if they miss me. Butler Family reunion is on July 5th in Idaho. Why am I so strangely tempted to drop in? I will always be connected the the Butlers/Perrys through Rosie. I wonder if they still consider me a gold-digger who wasted his inheritance.

I am watching Rosie snooze on the couch. She is so beautiful. The other day she said "Gracias for being my mommy." It was so sweet. (I love how she's mixing in Spanish words) I am so blessed to have her. Sometimes I feel the pressure of being a single mom and get a few twinges of sadness and doubt, wondering if my life is being stifled from opportunites (such as being a full time student) But then I think of the sweet things she does....singing primary songs, picking flowers for me, her huge grin and beautiful eyes, the ways she comforts me when I cry. There's nothing better in the world. Everything is Rosy, since I found my Rosie.

Current Mood: grateful
Current Music: Coldplay, Eclipse, Rockapella

Getting to Know You Meme

1. Name? Nicole
2. Birthday? 2/5/80
3. Favorite color? That's a hard one. I would say purple, electric blue, lime green, and silver.
4. Shape? Definitely, definitely a STAR
5. Relationship status? divorced
6. Love kids? Absolutely, especially Rosie.
7. Favorite car? I love my 2000 Honda Civic..I'll drive it till death. I do really like Passats, Priuses, and CRVs.
8. Keenest sense? smell
9. Favorite article of clothing? Either my denim jacket or pajama pants
10. Favorite ice cream? Ben and Jerry's Oatmeal Cookie, Blue Bunny's Lemon Zinger, and Maggie Moo's Cinnamoo (with brownie bits)
11. Favorite restauraunts? Chevy's, Tucci's, Johnny Carino's, McGrath's, Rumbi Grill, European Connection, Happy Sumo, Rodizio, anything Japanese
12. Aura color? blue and crystal are equal (check out www.auracolors.com/test.htm)
13. Store you could max out a credit card at? Old Navy, Dillards, Bath and Body Works, ebay
14. Signature scent? Clinique Simply (but I also like Happy and Happy Heart,victoria's Secret Love Spell and anything citrusy (duh!)
15. Gold or Silver? Silver
16. Mint or Cinnamon? It's a toss-up...but I'd have to say cinnamon
17. Describe your toothbrush: Purple and white Oral-B electric (and you gotta have the SATIN floss)
18. Boxers or Briefs? Neither
19. Vocal Part? Alto I in Viva Voce, Alto II in Sterling, Soprano 2 or Alto in ward Choir
20. Instant Messenger? Addicted! cuteculturechick on MSN, and nicoleandrosie on Yahoo!
21. Favorite scent on opposite sex? I love Hugo, Drakkar, and any of the Calvin Kleins. As long as it's light...
22. Do you emode? Uncontrollably...I've probably taken every test...
23. Do you ebay? Yep
24. Favorite letter of the alphabet? I really like R and Q for some reason. Although now that monograms are back in style....N is ultra-cool!
25. Do you believe in Santa Claus? yep
26. Favorite Network? VH1
27. Mistletoe-shy? Nope
28. Religious Affliliation? LDS
29. Cartoon character you most resemble? Snow White or Betty Rubble
30. Favorite TV shows? Gilmore Girls, ER, American Idol, Survivor
31. Reality TV junkie? Depends on the format
32. Scariest experience in you life? Being in the ICU on life support with Lung Failure (althought I was in a coma for most of it)
33. Hugs or Kisses? Again, a toss up. Either way, there's got to be an emotional connection or it's not as fulfilling. As much as I'm a kissaholic, I'd have to say hugs. (as for Hersheys....almond hugs)
34. Favorite feature? My blue eyes...but I've got a great smile too
35. Do you ever meet anyone off of the internet? I have before....
36. Coke or Pepsi? Diet vanilla coke
37. Nike or Reebok? Nike....but I LOVE Doc Martens
38. Favorite Books? Le Petit Prince, How the Grinch Stole Christmas, LDS Fiction, the scriptures
39. Free-time activities? Bargain shopping, singing, acting, attending concerts and theater, bowling, scrapbooking, roller skating, dancing, camping, exercising, outdoor stuff...
40. Something about yourself that nobody would know? I have completed 9 journals since Jr. High
41. Favorite music? Alternative and Pop, but I like just about everything. My favorite groups are U2, Matchbox 20, Sting, Sarah McLachlan, Dixie Chicks, Jason Mraz, John Mayer, Eclipse, Beatles, TMBG, Sting, Michael Buble, Norah Jones, and cheezy, sappy, 80's love songs. I'm also an A'Cappella junkie! Ooh, and acoustic/bluegrass too!
42. Favorite moves? HELP! Better off Dead, Say Anything, Legally Blonde, Moulin Rouge, musicals, etc...
43. Gum or mints? Cinnamon altoids, Doublemint Gum, or Bubblemint Orbit Gum
44. Ever been bungee jumping? Always wanted to...
45. Ever been TP'ing? Yep...and got caught...
46. Most embarrassing moment? I have many humorous ones...since I'm an actress I don't really get "embarrased" easily. I'll usually laugh it off. Although I was mortified when the lipstick kisses on a HS crush's car stained the white paint...
47. Celebrities you have been compared to? Madonna (back in her cone-bra days) Rosie O'Donnell (pre- Flock of Seagulls hair) Demi Moore, and just recently Courtney Cox and Jennifer Connelly.
48. Nicknames? Oh so many....Nicolie, Cole, Snow White, Trixie, Attention Deficit, CCC, Citrus, Dear, Chica, Gorgeous, "Elementary my dear Watson," Sister Kapp Perry, Jello, Nicoletta, Zoe, and my recent favorite....SMOKIN' HOT!
49. Dream role to play? Either Ado Annie in "Oklahoma" or Lucy in "You're a Good Man Charlie Brown."
50. CD in your player? It's a mix CD that I made for Ryan for valentines Day and kept a copy of. Has Eclipse, Michael Buble, Norah Jones, Pretenders, Dido, Lisa Loeb, and "If you wanna be happy for the rest of your life"
51. Do you collect anything? Souvenier shot glasses...I have about 40
52. Favorite song of all time? Sheesh, that's a hard one...a few would be "Maybe I'm Amazed" by Paul McCartney, "Something" Beatles, "In Your Eyes" Peter Gabriel, "(Stay) I Missed You," Lisa Loeb, "What a Wonderful World" Louis Armstrong, and soooo many Sarah McLachlan Songs.
53. Favorite Place to be Kissed? Huh, you think I'd make that public? If you want to know bad enough, you'll have to figure it out on your own!
54. Mascots of Schools you have attended? I was a Wilsonville Jackrabbit and Byrom Bobcat in Elementary, Hazelbrook Hawk and Riverview Rebel in JR HIGH, and Murray Spartan. Then I was a Ricks College Viking (It will always be Ricks to me)
55. Last Movie you saw? In the theater, "stepford Wives," and "Be Somebody, or Be Somebody's Fool" in the VCR.
56. First CD you ever owner? I got three for my 12th b-day....MC Hammer "2 Legit to Quit," Amy Grant "Heart in Motion," and "The Sound of Music" soundtrack
57. Last concert attended? I went to a couple Peter Breinholt shows last week, but the last BIG concert I saw was Kelly Clarkston and Clay Aiken (friend won them off the radio) and before that was BNL.
58. What fact would nobody guess about you? I can peel an orange in one curly piece.
59. First Concert Attended? NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK! (still a guilty pleasure)
60. Do you feel like this meme was a waste of time? I don't know...did it entertain you??? If so, it's not a complete waste of time.