Monday, March 26, 2007

Eight years ago today

Current mood: nostalgic

On March 26, 1999...Steve and I were married. We were married 4.5 rollercoaster years, then divorced.

It's kinda weird to think back on my life with him. It started out okay...we were married in the temple, and came from good backgrounds. We had some good moments and some fun trips, but the bad in our marriage definitely outweighed the good. He made choices that were wrong continually, yet I chose to "stand by my man." Many moments were shear hell, to be honest. But a woman can only stand so much deceit, abuse, and disappointment. Leaving him (or kicking him out, rather) was the hardest but most rewarding decision I have ever made.

We've been divorced 3.5 years, and I've been married to Taylor almost 2.5 years now. My time with Steve seems like an eternity ago. It's amazing to compare the love and adoration I receive in my marriage with Taylor, that was never present with Steve. I feel cherished and understood, and despite the student-husband scenario...I feel like he's taken good care of me.

Despite the trials I'm going through now, I'm happy. I am confident about myself in a way that I haven't felt since high school. I'm healthy, I'm feeling spiritually well, and I've got a lot going for me. It's taken a long time for me to heal from the wounds of the Steve years...but I think I'm there. I have some amount of bitterness due to his actions, especially those taken against Rosie...but I have forgiven him. I am sad that he is suffering the consequences of his actions in such a severe way. I'm sad that he didn't get the help he needed before he became out of control. But I can only be involved so much, and I'm happy that I don't have to be in contact with him anymore.

Currently listening :
Speak for Yourself
By Imogen Heap
Release date: 01 November, 2005

Monday, March 12, 2007

2007 Getting to Know Me

Welcome to the 2007 edition of getting to know your friends. What you are supposed to do is copy (not forward) this entire bulletin and paste it onto a new one. Change all the answers so they apply to you, and then post it. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little things about your friends, if you did not know them already.

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:00, but it felt like 6:00. I forgot to reset my alarm for daylight savings.

2. Diamonds or Pearls? Diamonds

3 What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Music and Lyrics

4. What is your favorite TV show? 24, House, Heroes, Gilmore Girls, ER, The Office, Ugly Betty, and reruns of 90210 on the Soap Network.

5. What did you have for breakfast? Luna Bar (strawberries and cream, I believe)

6. What is your middle name? Marie

7. What is your favorite cuisine? Tex Mex, with Japanese and Thai close behind.

8. What food do you dislike? Sweet Pickles, Tapatio, and half the food served in the hospital cafeteria.

9. Your favorite chip? Hint of Lime Tostitos and Dill Pickle Lays (will anyone in Utah send some to me? They don't sell them in Cali!)

10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? A mix of 100 dance hits of the 90's. Oh...the stake dance memories!

11. What kind of car do you drive? 2007 Black Honda Fit Sport (still unnamed, but I call it the Fit)

12. Favorite Sandwich ? It's pretty specific, and I actually get it at work...Chicken salad, mustard no mayo, american cheese, sprouts, mushrooms, and pickles on squaw bread. MMMMMMMMM

13. What are your favorite clothes? The ones that I'm finally fitting into again since I've lost 30 lbs :)

14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation? That's a tough one. I've always wanted to travel to Europe and Japan. I'm going to Florida next month to visit my husband, and I'm excited about that.

16. Favorite brand of clothing. Old Navy, as long as it isn't pre-distressed

18. Where would you want to retire? A log cabin in Oregon, but Taylor doesn't seem too impressed by it. I'd love to be by the ocean too.

19. Favorite time of day? Actually, I'm a morning person. But anytime I'm not working is typically my favorite.

20. Where were you born? Portland, OR

21. What is your favorite sport to watch? Super Bowl Commercials

22. Who do you think will not post this? No clue

23. Person you expect to post it first? No clue

24. Pepsi or Coke? Diet Cherry either. I'm also digging the strawberries and cream Pepsi Jazz.

25. Cats or Dogs? Neither, and never if I can help it

26. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Morning

27. Pedicure or manicure? Pedicure. My feet are killin' me!

28. Do you prefer funny or mushy cards? I kinda like the suggestive ones, just for the shock value. I usually give the funny ones.

29. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everyone? Taylor's in Fort Lauderdale for 14 weeks at a Jet training academy. He will be hired with Pinnacle Airlines when he is done. I will be very happy to have an employed spouse! Oh, and I've lost 30 lbs :)

30. What did you want to be when you were little? A radio DJ

31. What do you have in your trunk right now? bottles of water and my gym bag

32. What is your best childhood memory? Big family get-togethers, and growing up in Oregon

33. What are all the different jobs you have had in your life? Missionary Department receptionist, theater usher, optician, directory assistance agent, patient service representative, pathology secretary, and now a Medical Staff Coordinator.

35. What is your favorite dessert? Flan, or anything else with Caramel

36. Favorite Get away? Currently, Utah.

37. Ever been to Africa ? No

38. Glasses or Contacts? Both. I got some swanky new glasses that I really dig.

39. Ever been toilet papering? Yes, and I got caught by a cop and had to clean it up on the spot

40. Been in a car accident? Nothing serious

41. Favorite day of the week? Don't really have one anymore, but any evening that I actually get to relax is awesome.

42. Favorite restaurant? In Utah: Cafe Rio, Cedars of Lebanon, The Pie, Kneaders and Kyoto. In Cali: On the Border Mexican Grill, El Torito, Acupulcos, Elephant Bar, and La Tolteca.

43. Favorite flower? Sterling roses and gerber daisies

44. Favorite movies? Romantic Comedies

45. Favorite Past time? Exercising (water aerobics, elliptical, walking, weight machines) Catching up on my tivo, going to concerts, spending time with the family.

46. Favorite ice cream? Ben and Jerry's Oatmeal Cookie.

47. Favorite fast food restaurant. El Pollo Loco, Chick-fil-a, and anywhere else I can get food to go along with my diet

48. How many times did you fail your drivers test? Zero

49. Sandals or tennis shoes? Sandals

50. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Dillards, Old Navy, Costco, Frys, Children's Place

51. If the speed limit is 60 what is the fastest you will drive? I don't ever drive more than about 5-6 over.

52. What is your bedtime? Around 10:30, unless I fall asleep watching tv first

53. Whose response to this are you most curious about? I wonder if Taylor will actually fill one of these out

54. Last person you went to dinner with? Rosie...we had tacos on the way back from the gym tonight

55. What are you listening to right now? Rosie singing to herself

56. What is your favorite color? midnight blue, hot pink and lime green

57. How many tattoos do you have? 0

58. Who was your first kiss? Richard Jensen, behind the Draper Theater during a dress rehearsal of Pirates of Penzance. He was a smoker, and it was icky.

59. What are you most afraid of? The unbelievable amount of debt I'm in. And being naked in the shower during an earthquake.

60. What time did you finish this survey? 8:41 pm.

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